There was a time last week when some situation broke my heart.....I had to say goodbye to some of my dearest brother's and sister's in the Lord...Oh,Lord only you understand my pain....but I won't complain because you have given me so much in return..
This poem that I wrote was that I wrote in despair and much sorrow but it is my faith and strong belief that the Lord will restore Jerusalem.....The breaches will be repaired...Yes,Lord...do as you will.Amen
Have the heart's become cold.
Has ambition made em' bold.
Prejudice has made brother's hate.
In this world all this is true.
But what do you do when the Church wants to mate,
With the fallen systems of this heath.
Oh such pain it does give my heart.
When whom I thought was family does sham,
Sending by semaphore to the ruler of this world,
Giving the serpent the last laugh.
Oh what have we come to,my dear pilgrims in this Christian walk,
We have missed the road that was narrow
slipped onto another path slightly broader,
The time has come to hasten
To our hassock and cry to the Lord..
So that He'll save us before the devil can harry,
And turn the Holy Bride of Christ into a harlot..
Oh may this never happen....
When oh bretheren,will you hearken????
-Susanna
God help us all to hear your voice...this is my only plea....
Indeed Christian life's a race.
I thought I was fine,
But mine was a strange case.
Why did it always end in a maze?
After the struggle I was left in a daze.
Can you guess just how I might end this phrase?
There was One needed to calm that was ablaze.
Jesus now walks with me in my race.
Now there's no more daze,no maze,no blaze.
People might think my mind's a bit craze.
But I have my Jesus and that's the end of this phrase..
I was feeling very low last night....was crying out to God about my repeated spiritual failures and stupid choices that I make impulsively and hurt others in the process...So all my sadness I vent out into this poem I wrote....The Lord really heard m cry and comforted me in a way I have never experienced before....Love u Jesus........
My life goes like the mountain
Up and down,more of down like the fountain
Hitting rock bottom much too often
Deject's me,my heart it does sadden
Always expecting something to happen,
When something else always does dampen
Leaving me to my tears to lighten
Oh,weary I am to even think of the more heartaches to happen.
But the Lord is still looking and waitin..
Holding the end of the rope of my life,His hands never achin'
He let the rope a lil' slack,my freedom not curbin'
With each heartbreak tellin' that I'll be needin'
My precious Jesus even when life'll be endin'....
-Susanna
This is the story of my life..Praise Jesus for He loves me so....I know that I CANNOT do ANYTHING WITHOUT HIM....Oh,Lord Jesus please become my everything....Amen
The New year certainly began with a bang...It was different sort of bang for our family though..
A miracle happened on the 1st of Jan, the whole roof of our bathroom just fell down...smashing the westeren toilet seat into pieces....It would have been instant death had anyone been there...My sister was just about to enter but was distracted for 5 mins..Praise God..He is so faithful..protecting us n keeping us...Whatever the devil tries He CANNOT SHAKE OUR FAITH....The Lord is indeed showing us through all of this that in this year He is going to be our Protector from the snares of the wicked one and our Provider for all our needs..Amen
Bible:
I waited patiently for the LORD;
And He inclined to me and heard my cry.
He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay,
And He set my feet upon a rock
making my footsteps firm.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a song of praise to our God;
Many will see and fear
And will trust in the LORD.
How blessed is the man who has
made the LORD his trust,
And has not turned to the proud,
nor to those who lapse into falsehood.
Psalm 40:1-4 NASB
Thomas Hauker, a bright, well-favored, good-looking young gentleman, would not deny his personal relationship with Christ। For this he was sentenced to die at the stake.
Days before his execution, Thomas’s friends came to his English prison cell। One said, “I’ve heard that God gives a special grace to those who die in the fire that enables them to bear the flames. For your sake, that I might be able to bear this cruelty to you, can you give us some sign of it? Without knowing this, I don’t believe I can bear that day.” Thomas thought for a moment. “If the rage of pain can be tolerated, before I die I will lift up my hands to heaven as an indication.” On the day of execution, the crowd was abuzz with Thomas’s promise. As he was chained to the stake, he spoke quietly and with great grace to the men who laid the wood. Then he closed his eyes and the fire was kindled. Thomas continued to preach to those around him, but soon, for the roar of the flames, he could not. All were sure he had died. Suddenly, his hands rose above his head to his God and, with praise and thanksgiving, clapped together three times. A shout arose in the crowd, and Thomas sank into the fire and gave up his spirit.
How easily we get frustrated and give up in the mid-way…Surely the lives of such believer’s as Thomas Hauker ought to be a challenge to us.Oh, Lord...You know what a state I am in…I give up so easily and let the enemy take advantage and discourage me..
Help me never to try things in my own strength. I need you desperately Lord always..
I know You were still holding my hand even when I let go….Oh what a wonderful Savior You are!! Amen..
Yesterday our dear brother Joseph Abraham went to be with the Lord..Today was His funeral...
Separation is painful, the only comfort though is that it is only for a short time...What really has encouraged me from this dear uncle's life is that He was willing to sacrifice so much just to worship God together with His children even at such an old age of 78 despite many health problems... Even though He knew the Lord only for a short time... He lived what He believed... I see now there is no point living for long a mediocre-half hearted Christian life but giving your 100% is what's important.... It is better for the fire to burn brightly for a short time rather than for it to burn for a longer time wothout giving heat....uncle never preached his faith but lived it...
Despite all his suffering(both physical and emotional)he never complained... The most touching part I think is his attitude towards any problem he had especially physical suffering..He never thought it was important to give to much of importance to his physical problems for if the Lord wanted him to suffer he would be ready to do His will..This attitude which he maintained till his dying breath..Indeed uncle's life was only to live for Christ and his death was only gain...
Dear Lord, I am going to miss my dear uncle for a short time...help me to learn from his life to live the life you lived rather than just talking about it.O dear Jesus let my life speak more than my tongue....I thank you for the joy you have given me through the life of this dear uncle...I thank you for your great love for Him and for the joyful hope we have in you...Help me to press on to living more of you in a practical way..with You alone can I do it Lord..Amen
A song that really spoke to the struggles I am going through...
Abba Father let me be
Yours forever more
May my will forever be
Yours and yours alone
Never let my heart grow cold
Never let me go
Abba Father let me
Yours forever more
Sometimes there are some situations in life which may dishearten you or make your heart cold... But the truth my Lord,my comforter will never let go of me... Last sunday a brother encouraged me when he shared that our struggles are infact a preparation for a ministry the Lord has prepared for each one of us... One thing I do know is that no matter what happens, my Lord will never let go of me... Dear Lord Jesus, thankyou for your love and comfort that you give at times most needed।Thankyou for the family of God you have given who speak on your behalf to encourage me when nothing seems clear... There is nothing that I deserve but indeed it is your great love for me for which I have no word's to thank you for... Help me Lord that my will may be forever your's and your's alone.... May I never be too discouraged to hear from you... You have gone before me and faced the same pain as I am facing today... Give me the grace Lord, for only through your strength and abundant grace can I do anything in this life....Amen